I’m Awkward

Yes, that’s right. A-W-K-W-A-R-D.

But Jasmin, you are a reporter, how can you be awkward?Well, when it comes to work and school, I’m as normal and nice as one can be. I ask all the right questions and say all the right things and always have a smile on my face. But put me in a fun, social gathering – nope.

My main problem: I don’t know how to interact with people my age. I’m good with really young people and with the elderly. I guess it’s because babies are adorable and old people have great stories to tell.

But anywhere near the 18- to 22-year-old range and I’m out. I can’t do it.

Maybe it’s because I don’t like to go out to parties and events.

Maybe it’s because I don’t really understand the concept of alcohol and why one must consume it in order to have fun.

Or maybe it’s because I’m just ridiculously awkward and don’t know what to do when someone tries to talk to me in a friendly way. I mean, just last week, a girl came and sat next to me in my class and tried talking to me and I was so shocked and confused that I didn’t really respond (well… I said hi and how are you but then didn’t know what to do after that).

Maybe this is all because I don’t go to these parties or social events.

I’ve never really interacted with my age group outside of work and the classroom. But after three years of vicariously living off of all of your Facebook photos and hearing you in the library about your crazy mess of a weekend (or the time where my dorm room was right across from the Sorority houses… now THAT was a sight!), I think I’ll pass.

And now that I’m in my last year of college, I’ve come to realize that I don’t have a lot of friends and that I’m okay with that. As my old roommate, “Anna,” knows, I really don’t know how to make friends, much less know what to do with them once I have them.

Freshman year I was always trying to talk to people and making tons of friends but with friends comes meet ups and hanging out, things I really didn’t have time for. Now as a senior, I can safely say I have a group of less than 3 really close friends – people I can trust and count on.

I do hope I’m not the only one like this… I mean…. right? I probably just dug myself in a deep deep hole… which is fine, as long as I avoid the craziness that is happening in my hallway right now, then I am GOOD!

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